RIP Our Little Angel

Well i posted some pictures i found out i was pregnant in September i was due the 20th of may and we were way excited hoping for a girl then i was 6 weeks along and i went in to the emergency room cramping really bad thought for sure something was wrong they couldn't find any thing wrong so we went along with the pregnancy and then on the 8th of November i went to the doctors cause i was having some mild bleeding and the doctor decided to do a ultrasound to see what was wrong and he told me i was having contractions at 12 weeks and that the baby was not getting blood flow and that the baby was gone the worse day of my life to hear that and on top of that having Aaron there mom i want to see baby broke my heart didn't know how to tell a 3 year old his baby was gone i cried for hours that night the hardest thing was not knowing why. they gave me the options to have the baby at home in the toilet or to have a procedure done to remove it well i couldn't imagine having it at home so me and Shane decided to have the procedure done so the 9th of November the next day in the early morning i went in to the emergency room cause i was bleeding again and i thought oh know here it comes well i freaked so we went to the emergency room where i waited tell the next morning to have the dnc done well my worst fear about this is they put u completely out and it was scary but i had it done and no more baby and to this day i cant look at my ultra sound pictures with out crying and the thought of it happening again i just dont know if i could take it well im not giving up so maybe one day i will get a precious little baby in my arms again and i cant wait